Just as any medical illness like hypertension, kidney disease, migraines, arthritis, drug addiction, alcoholism or any other malady for which a person must take medication and be treated for in one way or another, it's the same for Bipolar Disorder. However, these fore-mentioned diseases, most of them anyway, come without stigmatization, yet mental illnesses do. It has been said that those of us with a mental illness lack faith in God. Also that we have committed some unspeakable act to deserve it. The opposite is quite true. Not only is Bipolar Disorder real, but it is a serious infirmity. Though I faithfully take the medications given to me, I still experience mania and depression from time to time. Both are not as prevalent as they once were. However, they can and do return. When they do rear their ugly heads, it can be in extreme ways.
In the Bible, in the Gospel of John, Chapter 9, Yeshua (Jesus) was with a man who had been born blind. His disciples inquired of the Lord, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" When the Savior responded, He said that no one had sinned. He went further to tell His disciples that not the man nor his parents had done anything wrong for the man to be born blind. It is the same with those of us who were born having Bipolar Disorder. You nor I, and not our parents committed any sin. Do not allow anyone to tell you differently. Yeshua spoke, in John 9:4, "...but this happened so that the works of God would be displayed in him." While for some people there is the belief that the Lord God cannot be glorified when someone is ill, I know this to be untrue. The Most High God receives the praise from me through my writing, my sense of humor, my blogs, my laughter and so much more.
Mania. I have revved up energy. I am at a frenzied pace and I don't require much sleep. I'm out of touch with reality, being agitated, irritated, chatty, and having racing thoughts. I have experienced buying sprees (and still do), and I'd love to be able to stop, but I cannot. My good friend calls me, 'the shopaholic'. I laugh and take it in stride. I've been promiscuous, meaning that I go into hyper sexuality. I have to stop here for a moment. Had it not been for the grace, love and mercy of God, I would have been HIV Positive a long time ago, but I am not. I praise Him for keeping me away from that and for keeping me whole and healthy. Depression is the other side. Not talking at all, or when I did (or do) talk, my words are troublesome. I have dark and stormy moods. I see the worst-case scenarios in life and nothing will ever change or get better. Helplessness, hopelessness, crying jags, insomnia, guilt trips, no energy, suicidal thoughts and attempts were in place.
As I learned to be an over comer, which means to rise above an obstacle or adversity, so you can as well. If anyone has told you that it's your fault that you did not receive your healing and deliverance from God, put that out of your mind! He does not always remove things from us. Even the Bible teaches that we must endure trials and tribulations! During my times of dealing with Bipolar Disorder, God still gets His will done because He has given me the gift of writing, of public speaking, of singing, of being able to encourage others, and so much more. I hope that today, I have inspired you with Bipolar Disorder, and those of you who know someone with it that there is hope, help and a better way of life. There is nothing wrong in taking medication, attending therapy, understanding the disease, and knowing what triggers it.
Surround yourself, your inner circle with people who like you, who love you and who care for you. If you are in the midst of those who only criticize you, put you down, tear you down, make fun of you, and constantly find fault with you, get rid of them immediately! There's something wrong with them, not you! You need people who will celebrate you, your accomplishments and your life. Yeshua proclaimed, in John 10:8-10 "The thief comes only to steal, and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it more abundantly." One love.
Written by Keena H. Smith
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